Youngster don't think about future much. They forgot about yesterday and don't much much about tomorrow. All that matters to them is now: where to go to have fun, what is available now to have fun and "that chick/dude looked b***able."
And that's why I know for sure that I am old. I constantly think about what I can do now in order to get a chance of having fun tomorrow. And the older I get, I more I tended to shift away from "having fun tomorrow" to "surviving tomorrow".
And that's also why I am starting to research on nursing home for myself. This is kind of a detour of my original plan, which was dying on or before age 40. I know I missed my deadline, but can't catch up with it because of legal reason and religious constrain. Until they finally legalized assistance suicide, I need to prepare for plan B. I also know that I will die alone because my huge ego and arrogant character. It's just so much easier to be my enemy than being my lover, and up until now, all of my enemies are too lazy or too cheap to hire assistant to kill me, or they are probably smart enough to realizing that keeping me alive gives me more pain and finishing it right away. To that I say bravo to you mother ****ing evil mind.
Oddly enough, I googled for a while and couldn't find any information about nursing home in Houston. So if you come across anything about the nursing home. Let me know. I would like to do a price comparison.
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