Good to have bad times

Maybe it's a good thing that every once in a while I experienced something that wasn't quite OK, and thus reminded me that I will not stay in the current situation forever. I enjoy a pretty routine life so that I myself can inject excitement and changes by myself. So in that sense I am a control freak. I hope that everything is in my way.

There's several problems with that attitude. To say the least, the world simply does not work in that way. There's always surprise, ups and downs, enjoyment and hardship. All these come when I am least expected.,

And then there's problems on whether I can make the right choice. Granted I am not as impulsive as I used to be when I was a teen. Still I architect my life in the way that I can crave my impulsive decision process. For instance, I have a iPod filled with thousands of music in huge spectrum of styles. That ways no matter what mood I am at I can always find the kind of audio entertainment I like at any moment. The same for games in my Nintendo DS, video in my Pocket PC, comics and books and tutorial and such in my laptop computer, and not to mention the terabyte of content I have on my desktop computer, all of satisfy my crave of learning and enjoyment, in my time, in my way.

Personally I don't see that attitude a crime. It's just that I need some reality check only in a while, and thus that hardship I had at work not longer being exist merely "bad time", but instead a nice reminder about nature of life.