When I re-acknowledge that I am not

Tomorrow is my last day of my trip to Hong Kong.  If there's one phrase that can recaps my whole trip, it will be "when I re-acknowledge that I am not."

It may sound negative, or even melancholy, but after living in this earth for so many years, I learned that it's actually healthier to be honest to your own feeling, embrace it, and move on.  In fact, I am genuinely glad that I have a lot of capable friends who are capable to express their idea and feeling through all sorts of medium: their singing, their dance, their musical talent, their drawing, their financial skill, their make-up technique, their management skill, their social skill, their time management ability and so on.  I was never envy.  It's just that, for some strange reason, I have a bit sorrow and fear of being left behind, or being someone who hinder the "progress" of the rest of the world.  Come to think of it, the reason why I love the song "姊妹" (lyrics by 林夕, sung by 楊千嬅), that's because the song capture the feeling of someone who tried so hard (in that case, in couple relationship) and yet also failed so hard, and when she saw her best friend's wedding, the mixing feeling of happiness and sorrow overwhelmed her.  And finally she told her best friend:

若我說我願意誰在乎過 你知道那答案快提示我
分半點福氣給我 不准留低我一個

 I know it's kind of odd that I can associate things in such an odd way.  And I know it's so self-center, childish and native.  In fact, that's exactly why I am so thankful that after all these year, you still accept me as I am.  You are still my good sister (好姊妹).